37 days. It’s getting closer and closer and every day I feel like little children I’ve watched this summer getting their first diving lessons. The first few times they climb the ladders of the diving board their coach puts them on a gym mat, has them lie head down, holds them by the ankles and slides them into the water. But then the time comes that they stand at the edge of the diving board on their own and look down at the water they are supposed to jump into on their own. And then, they jump. They do their very best to dive in exactly the way they practiced on the mats earlier. They have complete determination no matter how scared they are.
One little girl can hardly swim. Her tiny little body walks out, gets on her tiny little toes, does the slight bounce that is apparently necessary for all proper diving, jumps up and forward and does her best to stick her little arms to her ruler straight body as she plummets about 8ft down. She goes under and comes up with that beautiful baby swim; that particular swim style where she tries to keep her face in the water and doggy paddle forward while kicking straight down.
That swim style alone speaks volumes of determination, she is in the middle of drowning and she’s keeping her little mind focused on remembering each step of getting herself to the edge of the pool. When she finally gets there, she’s tired, she’s slowly climbing the ladder to get out, she sits at the top for about 15 seconds, and then runs over to the shower, claps her hands, and breaks out in an enormous smile as she gets in line for her next turn at the diving board.
The closer it gets, the more I feel like that little diver, absolutely determined, remembering, practicing, and happy about it all. The last weeks have been hectic in preparations, packing, sorting, and life changing events. Keeping the goal in mind is how I’ve kept my sanity. Though my relationship status has changed, my goals are like my Redbull, they give me wings.
I love to notice the silver linings. The Universe will provide exactly what I need when I need it. I am constantly amazed and appreciative. It may not always happen according to my plans, but the goals are always moving closer, the needs are always met.