The last 12 months of my life have been a true example of how the yin and yang of life works.
Once upon a time, the rotations of this wheel took a long time. Now as I continue to grow, it turns more quickly. The changes are more immediate. The ability to see paths of growth more illuminated.
From getting a good job in Turkey, a country I had longed to see for years, and discovering the beauty of the land and people – to the overwhelming need to remove myself.
From being happy on my own- to a dream like relationship – to the nightmare of its sudden end.
From the relocation to this beautiful country and island on the promise of a job – to the realization that the job didn’t exist, the money didn’t exist, realizing I was being held “nicely” as a hostage, getting typhoid, visa issues, – to building a rapport with the people, starting to teach again, loving my students, having people smile and try to talk to me everywhere I go – to the nightmare of this week.
This last 12 months has given me highs and lows.
I have seen beauty and ugliness in all the places and people. I am surrounded, everywhere, by amazing people I am grateful to call friends.
We are all here to help each other.
I believe when I go home, I will be able to curl up for a little while; enter the ash stage, I am burning now.
But I will be reborn again. Each time I rise, I am stronger, brighter, and more complete within myself.
I don’t know the next step yet for sure, but I will be a force, a powerful force for change.