I understand that the great lessons in life are mostly taught through trials to overcome. I do not hesitate to proclaim that I want the lessons. I want to be the best person I can be. I want to help others. I understand I need the trials in order to do that.
I would like to ask for some time to fully appreciate and learn from the trials I have already experienced. I am asking for some time of rest from the big trials. This last set of trials is also bringing to the front many of the trials I had previously thought were already worked through. I need some time to evaluate, sort, process, glean, reevaluate, reprocess, resort, and change habits and ways of thinking. I am asking for that time to not involve highly emotional trials.
Life is an ongoing process. I get that. I know that waking up can be a trial. Watching TV is a trial for me right now. I’m not asking for an unrealistic situation where everything magically goes my way, no. I am asking for time of normal, everyday, low-emotional-cost trials until I catch up with the big ones I’ve already got.
I’m really trying to do my best with what I’ve been given. I’m working hard to find the beauty and joy. I’m being good to my fellow people. I’m working through the negativity and reaching for the positive in every way I know how.
I won’t bargain or make any deals. I won’t promise or contract with the forces that may be. I will continue to do my best, no matter what comes. I will not expect anything. I am merely asking, putting it out there – Please, give me time; let me work through what I have before the next big lesson learning trial.