Most of the time I can forget. But some days, I remember. The days when it doesn’t stop coming at me like a freight train, like today; they are the hardest. One memory will trigger the life freight train of memories. They just run over me.
All I want is for the people of the world to stop hurting each other. Stop being so afraid of being hurt that they hurt others first.
We have desensitized ourselves to how often, how easily, how carelessly we hurt each other. We have taught ourselves, our children, to laugh it off. He’s only joking, she was only kidding, I don’t mean anything by it. Why are you taking it so seriously? It’s only a joke.
We laugh at ourselves, at each other, in order to not feel the shame and guilt and pain we cause, we feel from others. We actively disenfranchise ourselves from the negative emotions that come from “making fun”.
But that’s where it starts. Those little “jokes” and mean-spirited “funny” things, that’s where we learn to turn off the empathy. And that can be where it stops, but so often it’s not.
This train is running full steam ahead today. But I’m still up and going.
Good night from my little part of the world. I hope to sleep this back into it’s station.
Love and peace to you all.